THIS WEEK HASN'T BEEN MY BEST WEEK.
I have been struggling with my depression and anxiety a lot. Working my overnight job has been getting the best of me. As bad as i want to throw in the towel and tell them to kiss my ass I can not just yet! Feeling forced to be somewhere you absolutely do not feel like you belong anymore is mentally exhausting. I smile and give this job my all even though on the inside i am falling apart every day I have to clock in. This then triggers my anxiety. My anxiousness to put in my 2 weeks. But the responsible side of my says "Ashalynn you got this, 5 more months!" 😩
My focus has been on getting my brand off the ground. Which of course is not easy but it is what makes me happy. No matter the obstacles I face and the ones to come I remain all in. Reading, journaling, meditation, my affirmations, and working out have all kept me afloat.
With all this being said comes the reason for the photo.
I was out yesterday shopping for my final needs for my pop-up next month and as I waited in line this cup caught my eye and everything inside of me said this was for me. At this point this cup could have been $100 and i would have still purchased it. Everything about this cup screamed out to me.
Persevere: continue in a course of action even in the face of difficulty or with little or no prospect of success
This!!!!! Like seriously!!!! This is all I needed!!
No matter what is happing in your life you have purpose. Your struggle goes unseen at times but someone somewhere relates to you just the same.
5 months is a major goal for me to up and leave a company I have given 12 years of my life too but let me tell you I've never been more ready than NOW!